You're WAY more powerful than you might think. And you already have the answers at your core. The mechanics and logistics and tactical stuff might be a place where you need tactical advice. But getting advice on that is actually counter productive until you have clarity.
Once you get clarity, as soon as you can see what you actually want, you turn into a different person. A powerful, unstoppable, dynamic, highly intelligent and capable person.
And THAT'S when you step on the gas! But if you go about it backwards, it's like stepping on the gas with a chain that's anchored into the earth and strapped to your soul. You'll burn up all of your resources and fuel and go nowhere. You're left feeling broken, defeated, depleted, and tired. It's not that you didn't give it everything you had.It's just that you didn't remove that chain first! It's the first step.